Happy we’ll be beyond the sea and never again I’ll go sailin’

It’s been a month since my last entry so I suppose it’s time for an update.

Most of my time has been filled with home hunting and working.

The very good news is that I have now found a place to live and I move in the early part of next week! From what I’ve gathered so far I’ll be living in an ideal location with some great people. Not only that but Thlayli can come and live there too! I can hrdly contain my excitement and have already started buying things for my new room.

It’s time for me to go job hunting again, selling life insurance really isn’t for me. I find it impossible to sell a product that I honestly don’t believe in. This week I will be hassling my job angency to see what there is to offer. Luckily for me I have enough money to keep me going for the next couple of months so that if I didn’t find something better for a while it’s not the end of the world.

Now it is only a few days until Halloween and the Rites event. I am so incredibly excited but I am absolutely fretting about what to wear! My dress arrived today but I’m not even sure if I like it. I may have to think again.

In other news! I have had a (very much needed) haircut. It really is something special!

Now I’ve been happy lately thinking about the good things to come, And I believe it could be something good has begun

For the past week I have been staying with the wonderful Martin in Brighton. My time there was spent walking the streets with a wad of CVs and applying for any job that I’m qualified for. I walked so much that I have a large blister on the ball of my foot! It was completely worth it as I managed to get a lot of interest from agencies who passed on my details to several employers (by the end of the week my phone didn’t seem to stop ringing). Friday I had an interview at 4pm and after a short amount of time there they offered me the job on the spot. I took it and I start my training on Monday! Exciting beyond words! The job isn’t exactly what I would like to be doing but it is along the right line and it’s my ticket to the city I love (and the people there that I love dearly).

Now comes the next stage: finding a flat! Martin is very generously going to let me stay with him for this week and, hopefully, by the weekend I will have my very own flat sorted. I have so much to do and will be exceptionally busy for the next week or too but the excitement of it all is keeping me going. Every moment of it is going to be worth it when I walk through the front door of my own flat in the city that I already see as home. It will be a beautiful moment.

This is really happening! It hasn’t quite sunk in yet!

Leaves are fallin’ all around, time I was on my way

Today I finally received my P45 and on Tuesday I receive my redundancy pay. Two less things for me to bitch about I suppose! Haha.

The most frustrating thing is that with the money I’ve been religiously saving recently I have enough money for a flat deposit AND two months rent. I just don’t have the added security of having a job for when that money is spent. I’m so close but still so far.

Job hunting is still pretty much the same as ever. I did actually hear back from someone today about a Telesales job but, quite honestly, I think I fluffed it. At least now I feel like my CV whoring is finally getting me somewhere.

I still can’t stand the cowards and time-wasters but I guess that’s something none of us are ever free of.

My greatly reduced internet time seems to be paying off! I’ve spent a fair amount of today online for job hunting purposes but yesterday I managed to get quite a bit done! I filled a black sack with crap I don’t want anymore (more bags to soon follow), I fixed a few items of clothing that have had buttons missing and holes for months (yep I sew, surprised?), I’ve been sourcing materials for my Bizarre Ball costume and have been keeping my room beautifully tidy.

Tonight I’m scrapbooking. Life with no TV and limited internet is brilliant. Seriously.

I’m a lengthy monologue, I’m livin’ like a dog, I’m bored

I have come to the conclusion that I am thoroughly bored of the internet at the moment so I’ve decided to take a bit of a break from it. I have my iPhone so I will still be accessing the internet when it’s necessary but I’m just bored of sitting online and not doing anything constructive with my time.

I’ll be popping in every now and again to apply for jobs, update my blogs and update my websites but that will be it. I can still be contacted in all the usual ways, however (and if you would like my e-mail address etc feel free to ask for it). I’ll still be available on MSN as my phone leaves me signed in on there.

I’m not sure how long this will be for. Probably until I’ve moved quite honestly (whenever that will be). Instead my time will be dedicated to finding a job, making a bit of money here and there and getting on with something more productive.

The day the mermaid pretended to be human…

Mod Free?

Today I have been playing around with camouflage make up. It took a bit of practise to perfect but once I knew what I was doing it was amazing (and scary) to watch my tattoos disappear in front of my eyes.

Combine the make up with retainers and you have a fully employable Kirsty.

When your moon is fake and your mermaids cry

So, I’m still job hunting. I admit that, at first, I didn’t dedicate as much time to applying for jobs as I should have been. My reason for this was that I was waiting to hear back from the job I wanted the most. Just before the beginning of the Bank Holiday weekend I decided that I could wait no longer so over the last three days I have applied for about 10 jobs. I know I should have upped my game before but I was so keen to get the other job that I wanted to wait. I have sent out other applications previously and, quite frankly, I’m getting rather annoyed about not getting any feedback as to whether my applications have been successful or not (I’m guessing not). A short e-mail would be nice. Oh well. I guess that’s just how it is at the moment.

I refuse to lose hope though and my CV is going to appear in so many inboxes over the next few days (and weeks, if necessary).

I have been very good with money recently and I have been saving a lot of it up so that, when I do eventually move, it will be as pain free as possible. I am really starting to worry about money at the moment but as long as I keep a tight grasp on my money I should be fine for another month.

This has meant that my tattoos have had to be put on hold for now. It is a shame but at least when I have finally made the move I will be MUCH closer to Alex so I can (hopefully) pop in there more often and get work done on a regular basis again. Sure, money will still be tight but I can just book an hour here and there on a more regular basis. At least it will be progress, that’s the main thing.

It is only a matter of time before a mermaid finds her way back to the sea, eh? I’m feeling positive.

Finished Fins

Finished Fins

It has been nearly two months since my appointment where my fins were completed but I have now, finally, got round to getting pictures of my finished fins!

All the progress and waiting have been worth while. It also means that I can solely concentrate on the fish elements of my leg project. Next to come is my Moral Eel tattoo. I am very excited about it. More information coming soon!

More pictures are available on my website (www.crystoth.co.uk) and on my flickr account.

Gotta make a move to a town that’s right for me…

Yesterday I received the news that I have been made redundant. It is a shame because I did like my job there but I understand that they would only have taken this action if they had absolutely no other choice.

They’ve been fantastic. Yesterday, officially, was when I get my months notice but they are not asking me to work through my notice so I will be paid for the next month but will be able to job hunt at the same time.

This does leave me with the perfect opportunity to really work on relocating to the city that has felt like home to me for so long; the one and only Brighton.

I have an absolutely wonderful friend group. Full of people I adore there and for many weeks now I have been spending every weekend there. It really does feel like home. Not only that but it has been my dream to live by the coast for many years now.

I know my bosses feel bad for making me redundant but I understand completely so they really shouldn’t. This is a positive thing for me and it’s the next step to reaching my goals.

This is my first proper update for a long time. The fact is that I have just been so busy having a great time with my Brightonian friends. I’ve been spending as much time with them as possible so the internet has taken a huge backstep in my life. This is wonderful. It also mean that I have been networking with ‘real’ people as well as networking online.

Let’s Show The World We Can Dance, Bad Enough To Strut Our Stuff

I can’t help but  feel like I am going off the rails ever so slightly, but actually, I’m quite enjoying it. I’m not going mad I’m just doing things I wouldn’t have done before and now I’m much more wired and dynamic. On top of all this I am feeling even more confident and happy! I feel like I could really win at this “life” thing. I am feeling really good within my skin and it like I’m really sussing out who I am. And finally I am thoroughly enjoying being single; it feels as if anything is possible. I don’t feel indestructable and there is no risk of me doing or going to do something silly but I just feel like I’ve really progressed with my life and emotions recently. I just feel like I can really succeed at this life and make something good out of it and I have the independance to be able to do this myself. I have also had the opportunity to know (with a little help from my friends) where I have been going wrong and I am now learning from my mistakes and growing further.
In short: I feel fabulous.

My recent events:

Saturday 20th June 2009

This was such an amazing day! I met up in Brighton with a few absolutely amazing people from BodyMod.Org. So good to see such lovely people again… and to meet a couple of new faces. We sat on deckchairs, ate gourmet burgers and wandered around the fabulous Brighton. Not forgetting a little venture down on the pier. I really miss every9one already but hopefully it wont be long before I get to hang out with them again.

Monday 22nd June 2009

The aim of today was to get the fins on my legs to a finished (or near-finished) state. So with today’s appointment with Alex that was the goal and, with maybe the exception of possible touch-ups, that goal was met. More shading was added and the red was made so vibrant. I am made up with the results. Now I have the swelling to look forward to…

After my appointment I made my way back into Brighton to spend time with more of the wonderful people I have met because of BodyMod. We went out for a few drinks and lots of get conversations. Leaving my friends in Brighton and making my way back home breaks my heart every time. It would be a dream come true if I could move there and I’m currently working on it! I am willing to do prettymuch anything (workwise) just so I have the opportunity to move there. I’m making that one of my main goals.

This film will never fail to fill me with joy…

A Fishy Behind

I’ve not blogged much as I am going through a bit of a tough time. Nothing I can’t handle but it has just slowed me down a bit. I thought I’d try listening to the music that got me through tough times before and it seems to be working brilliantly. My emotions are forever changing and coming in waves but I know I can beat this.

So, here is my recent news.

Thursday 21st May 2009

I went for my appointment with Alex at Midnight Tattoo. This appointment was dedicated to getting my Lionfish finished (for about a year I only had the outline). It looked great before but now it has colour it looks absolutely outstanding. How Alex’s brain didn’t explode I will never know. I could not be happier with the outcome. My next appointment is Monday 22nd June and the plan is to get the fins of my mermaid/fish project finished with more red and more shading. I can’t wait!

Friday 22nd May 2009

This was the day of my Nan’s funeral. A very sad time for all but it was nice to get the opportunity to spend a bit of quality time with my sisters and to get to chat to family members I hardly ever see (or have never met before).

Friday 19th June 2009

Today indecided that it was finally time to start sorting out my fishtanks. I’ve had two rather large fish tanks and each only had a couple of small fish in them. Now all the fish are in the larger of my two tanks and they all look very happy and healthy. This has really improved my mood and makes my room feel much less cluttered and now have created room that is hopefully big enough for me to adopt a pet rat. So… I now have a 3 foot fish tank that I will either dump or give to someone who wants it.